Tuesday, September 29, 2026

Accidently Like a Catholic - The Warren Zevon Story

   

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(Michael Dubruiel died less than 2 years after writing this post.) 

My introduction to Warren Zevon came in the early 1980's when I was in a record store in Gainesville, FL looking for a new album that had just came out (I don't remember what the album was). While in the store I was caught up with the album they were playing over the PA system..a singer was singing about being in Hawaii and abandoned by his girl to the "Hula, Hula" boys with a refrain in Hawaiian. It piqued my interest. I listened on to the next song which was about going to Memphis, Graceland to be exact and digging up the king and begging him to sing about those heavenly mansions Jesus mentioned and imagining him (Elvis) walking on the water with his diet pills.

I was hooked.

Who was the artist? I asked the guy at the counter.

Warren Zevon.

The album?

The Envoy Which only recently has been made available on CD. Thus I was introduced to Warren Zevon.

I became a big fan, there is something about a certain class of artists, usually more know for their songwriting than their singing that has always categorized my favorite singers. People as diverse as Tom T. Hall, David Alan Coe, John Prine, Matraca Berg, Neil Young, Neil Diamond and Warren Zevon have long been my favorites. In some ways Zevon was the most diverse of all of them. One minute you were apt to hear a classical string piece introducing some twangy anthem to "playing that dead band's song...all night long" (the dead band referring to another of my long time favorites Lynyrd Skynrd's "Sweet Home Alabama" the next some hard rocking tune. Zevon in many ways defies definition.

I'll Sleep When I'm Dead: The Dirty Life and Times of Warren Zevon in some ways is just as quirky a biography as the singer was in life. When my copy first arrived I was disappointed, because it didn't seem like a biography at all, but rather a collection of interviews, journal entries, reminicences. But like the genius that the book is about, I soon found their was a genius to what Crystal Zevon (Warren's second ex-wife) had put together. Here is the gripping and moving tale of the real Warren Zevon told from every angle, by people who both loved and hated hiim. The details read like a life long confession--mostly of failures, but with glimmers of grace here and there. The stories behind many of the songs co-written by Warren Zevon are here and as this became my lunch time reading over the past month, I found myself going back and listening to the music from the different periods of his life.
I saw Warren perform live once, with Amy and a few friends at Clearwater Beach on the Fourth of July back in the 1990's. No band, just him in some bike shorts and his twelve string guitar belting out all the hits--no mention in the journal entries of that performance, but there are of many--many times revolving around the endless hook-ups with women that he had fleeting affairs with.

One of the most intriguing elements of the bio, that is very minor in the book but is there throughout his life is Zevon's fascination with the Catholic Church. In Spain he tries to convince then wife Crystal that they convert--she's reluctant, so nothing happens. Later when asked by someone what his religion he says, "Catholic." He attends Mass with a woman whom he sleeps with in the same apartment building, another time when troubled in Ireland he finds a Catholic Church and enters during Mass emerging afterwards and writing in his journal of the experience "Peace be with you" which seems to be something that eluded him throughout his life--hence the song title and book title "I'll sleep when I'm dead." Perhaps the worst part of this flirtation with Catholicism happens when he is diagnosed with terminal cancer and given only three months to live and visits a Catholic priest with a friend only to be told that he does not have time enough to convert (for non-Catholics and Catholics out there--this must be some reference to the RCIA process which normally takes about nine months to complete, but the priest was wrong to say this--but may not have understood the situation).

As a Warren Zevon fan I loved this book. As a Catholic I wished that Warren might have fallen into the hands of a saintly priest or Catholic who might have given him the tools to redeem all of the demons that tormented his soul and kept him from committing to anything but death in his life. To paraphrase another author, we all are either living to sleep or sleeping to rise--unfortunately Warren was haunted by death (see the skulls that dominate his album art--complete with dangling cigarette), but somewhere in the midst of it all I think the grace that haunted him might have won out in the end.

Warning for the prudish--this book contains all the gore one might expect from someone involved in rock and roll--but in the midst there are glimmers of those heavenly mansion Jesus mentioned...

Sunday, September 27, 2026

OCIA Guide to Confession

  In The Pocket Guide to Confession by Michael Dubruiel: 

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This pocket guide is meant to serve as an aid to such a varied group as those who:

  • Confess regularly
  • Are becoming Catholic
  • Are making their First Confession
  • Have been away from this sacrament for some time
  • Are waiting for a "sign" that God can forgive whatever horrible sin has been committed

You will find:

  • Answers to basic questions about Confession
  • Help in preparing to make a good Confession by examining your conscience and praying before you celebrate the sacrament
  • A walk through the sacrament
  • How to use the experience of the Apostle Peter as a model for your own ongoing conversion to Jesus Christ.

Saturday, September 26, 2026

St. Vincent de Paul - September 27

     Today is the feast of St. Vincent de Paul. From today's Office of Readings. 


Even though the poor are often rough and unrefined, we must not judge them from external appearances nor from the mental gifts they seem to have received. On the contrary, if you consider the poor in the light of faith, then you will observe that they are taking the place of the Son of God who chose to be poor.
  Although in his passion he almost lost the appearance of a man and was considered a fool by the Gentiles and a stumbling block by the Jews, he showed them that his mission was to preach to the poor: He sent me to preach the good news to the poor. We also ought to have this same spirit and imitate Christ’s actions, that is, we must take care of the poor, console them, help them, support their cause.
  Since Christ willed to be born poor, he chose for himself disciples who were poor. He made himself the servant of the poor and shared their poverty. He went so far as to say that he would consider every deed which either helps or harms the poor as done for or against himself. Since God surely loves the poor, he also loves those who love the poor. For when one person holds another dear, he also includes in his affection anyone who loves or serves the one he loves. That is why we hope that God will love us for the sake of the poor. So when we visit the poor and needy, we try to understand the poor and weak. We sympathise with them so fully that we can echo Paul’s words: I have become all things to all men. Therefore, we must try to be stirred by our neighbours’ worries and distress. We must beg God to pour into our hearts sentiments of pity and compassion and to fill them again and again with these dispositions.
  It is our duty to prefer the service of the poor to everything else and to offer such service as quickly as possible. If a needy person requires medicine or other help during prayer time, do whatever has to be done with peace of mind. Offer the deed to God as your prayer. Do not become upset or feel guilty because you interrupted your prayer to serve the poor. God is not neglected if you leave him for such service. One of God’s works is merely interrupted so that another can be carried out. So when you leave prayer to serve some poor person, remember that this very service is performed for God. Charity is certainly greater than any rule. Moreover, all rules must lead to charity. Since she is a noble mistress, we must do whatever she commands. With renewed devotion, then, we must serve the poor, especially outcasts and beggars. They have been given to us as our masters and patrons.




Michael Dubruiel


Blessed Fulton Sheen

      


Below is an excerpt from the introduction to Praying in the Presence of the Lord with Fulton Sheen , edited by Michael Dubruiel, originally published in 2002. 

Excerpts from the book will be published in this space over the next few weeks, in honor of Archbishop Sheen's beatification  on September 24, 2026. 


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Silence (3)

Be silent, all flesh, before the LORD; for he has roused himself from his holy dwelling -ZECHARIAH 2:13 (RSV)


Reflection by Michael Dubruiel

Spend some time reflecting on the following: 

1. Meditate on Psalm 46:10, "Be still, and know that I am God" (RSV). Spend the time in silence in the presence of Our Lord worshiping Him

 2. Meditate on Psalm 62:1, "For God alone my soul waits in silence; / from him comes my salvation" In your heart plead with God in silence for His grace.

3. Meditate on Ecclesiastes 3:7, which reminds us that there is a time for every purpose under heaven "a time to keep silence, and a time to speak" (RSV). Ask God for the grace to know when you should be silent and when you need to speak.

Prayer

Lord, in the silence reveal yourself to me and teach me to know who you have created me to be and what I should do. Fill me with your love and drive out all fear that I may feel at this moment. Amen.




Thursday, September 24, 2026

Blessed Fulton Sheen

     


Below is an excerpt from the introduction to Praying in the Presence of the Lord with Fulton Sheen , edited by Michael Dubruiel, originally published in 2002. 

Excerpts from the book will be published in this space over the next few weeks, in honor of Archbishop Sheen's beatification  on September 24, 2026. 


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"blessed fulton sheen"








Silence (2)

Be silent, all flesh, before the LORD; for he has roused himself from his holy dwelling -ZECHARIAH 2:13 (RSV)


Reflection by Michael Dubruiel

Bishop Sheen shows that the practice of silence is in imitation of Our Lord, who spent entire nights alone in prayer. If He, the Son of God, did this, how much more do we need to do it?

We become like Our Lord when we pray be- cause, like Him, we come to know who we are in God's eyes and what our mission is in this life. The Scriptures highlight that Jesus spent the night in prayer before choosing the twelve apostles (see Luke 6:12- 13) and before His arrest and crucifixion.

We know that in His prayer at Gethsemane Jesus prayed from His heart, pouring out what was on His mind to the Father. But we also know from that same prayer that He was silent and waited for a response. An angel was sent to strengthen Our Lord into His waiting.

Too often we can be tempted to do all of the talking in prayer and not leave room for God to respond to us. As Bishop Sheen points out, fear is what keeps us from being silent. We are afraid of what God might reveal to us if we are silent. The Scriptures show us that this is not abnormal but that the message of God's angels is always the same: "Do not fear."

There is a great power in silence, something that is almost palpable. We notice the world around us in a way that we don't when we fill our lives with noise. This awareness leads to our being present to the now. It is the now where God has placed us, and it is the now where we need to worship Him.